I'll Scream Later by Marlee Matlin
Reviewed by Janine Slayton
I have always liked Marlee Matlin. I remember seeing her in various TV shows and movies over
the years, never really knowing who she was but being drawn to her anytime she was on my television
screen. When she joined the cast of The L Word, one of my favorite shows, she really blew me away. Her
character on the show was so tough, so real and so magnetic that it gave me even more reason to tune
in each week the show aired. So when I walked into Target a few weeks ago, and saw her laughing face
staring at me from the cover of her autobiography, I'll Scream Later, I knew I was going to have to read
it.
Marlee Matlin is a very unique woman. She is Deaf, and while that is something that everyone
knows about her, especially after reading the book you realize that that is in no way what defines who
she is. It is an obstacle she has had to overcome and that has presented challenges for her along the
way, but she never let her disability hold her back from accomplishing the goals and dreams she had for
herself. Her story is captivating, and, above all, honest. Matlin shares the highs and lows of her time in
Hollywood, from getting her first role in the film Children of a Lesser God-a performance which
garnered her both a Golden Globe and an Academy Award for Best Actress-to her abusive relationship
with William Hurt and the drug addiction that brought her to Betty Ford right after her dreamlike night
at the Golden Globes.
Even reading her words on the page, without hearing her speak her story out loud, there is an
energy that radiates through the page to the reader. It's like her personality is too large to be contained
by black text on a white page. She tells all of her stories with a straightforward, honest attitude, even
the stories that are hard to tell. Sometimes she jumps around while telling her story, and while it could
have the effect of taking away from the story at times, I think it is an even bigger reflection of her energy
and how fast her mind seems to constantly be spinning. Her passion for life just radiates through
everything she writes, and as you read about her story and her experiences, the love she seems to have
for so many of the people in her life is glaringly obvious.
There were many times while reading the book that I managed to forget
that Matlin was Deaf. It
was often at a moment where she brought up a translator or
modifications that had to be made for a set
that she was working on that I remembered that thing that very
obviously sets her apart from most
other actors and actresses. I think my forgetting about her deafness
only proves her point, however.
That point is that her deafness is not what defines her. She has
refused to let it hold her back from
anything she's wanted. She has always found a way to overcome the
challenges that her deafness has
presented, managing to lead a very fulfilling and full life so far.
There are moments, however, when she mentions incidents in her life
that make the hearing reader realize how much we take for granted every
day. One example is when she talks about her family, who she obviously
loves dearly. She talks about
how it's hard, not being able to hear them in the other room as they
play, or when they run into the
kitchen arguing about something, and since she couldn't hear what
happened, she obviously can't tell
who started the fight. It's little moments like that that Matlin
recalls that made me realize how much I
take for granted every day.
Matlin's book is one that I would view as a must-read if you know anything about her. Reading
about her life was captivating and inspiring. Her love and energy seemed to rub off on me as I was
reading, and it is very rare that an autobiography has that kind of emotional effect on me. Her story is
captivating, and it only makes the reader excited to see what more Matlin has in store for everyone over
the coming years.